i need to find my place. i need to find somewhere im comfortable. some place i liek to be. i need to do something for me. im living my life at the sake of others.

so i hate society. with all its twisting regulations, morals, and rules and people who live to lie and cheat. Sick of people who are put high in charge who have sick minds and are absolutely horrible people. Tell me how a drug addict women who has no where to live no job no money can fill out prescirptions through a drugstore of oxycotton every two weeks without being questioned. but a person who is severally in trouble or dying cannot recieve help if they lack insurance. tell me why when a women is raped the first question is what was she wearing as if that its her fault. Because she was wearing a skirt a man had t force her to have sex with her, make that women whose life has beeen ruined feel a little bit more shamed. Why are there ungrateful people everywhere taking everything that have for granted. rich little kids running around complaining about a car they were given as a present because it wasnt the one they wanted when there are kids like me scraping my own money working full time over a summer just to make it by. i have absolutely no patience for those who think of themselves as someone better then the rest. for the people who think the dont have to wait on line, for the people who treat service like shit, for the people who dump on people who go to lower schools then them. i cant stand you, and you are the reason this world is going downhill.

i havnt written in a long time and it kind of bothers me. i feel like i have no time to do it though. anyway, schools over and im happy about that. its officially summer and im all ready for it. it's super crummy out right now so its kind of bringing me down. but i have my friends home and this summer should be interesting. on another note my kitten is insane, so insane in fact that im pretty sure my mom isnt interested in getting a puppy so thats a bummer. umm not mch has changed i dont know.

i gots a new kitty :o) she's so cute and crazy i love her. it's cheered me up a lot. a little added stress but its worth it. i'm getting a puppy soon. a golden retriever, we've wanted it forever. im so excited. i love animals. i'm currently trying to get a job in a pet store or something of the sort. it's not easy right now cause no one is hiring :o( its okay tho ill find something eventually. :o)

so0o0o0o stressed.
need school to be over, and
to give me back my sanity.

i love my family they're funny.
i hate bitches.
i need to do something about hating pot since everyone i know smokes.
i need to stop over thinking every single thing, i need to become simple minded.
i dont want to go to work and miss this nice weather.
i do want to get drunk this weekend and let loose.
i cant wait to get my puppy and kitten!
i can wait for the exspenses.
in class we had to do this excercise where we listed 5 things we liked about life and existence and earth and what not, then list 5 things we hated. like for and against. it was ineresting. and i liked it, just sharing.
my mind is all over sooooo goodnight

im going through a thing again. i just keep coming across that upset me, make me jealous, or something or the other. i want to find peace. i want to have summer. i want to get outta here.