i dont know what to do. i was put into a bad situation with a friend. she blocked me and lied to me but claims thats all flase. and i judt dont know what to think. i dont know if i can trust er or not and if my efforts are even worth putting toward hat if shes going to pull a petty act like that. i'm 20 years old and i just wish that i can fall upon friends that are mature enough to tell me when they are upset with me, cancel plans cause something else came up, someone with courage or even enough respect. i find that in people who are much older so i dont know if im asking for to much. i was watching a movie in creative writing, about his guy who just left. burned his money , left his car, got a backpack and started walking.left everything behind him. it wa shim and the outside. He hitched hicked, paddle down white waters, worked on a farm thing, lived in alaska on a deserted bus. i dont know. i watch these movies and wish i can have moment like he has tha could be as rich as that. that could be truthful to me. i want truth, i want answers, i want clarity, i want to be free from haveing to deal with this and i iwll get there one day. ill meet friends who are respectful and so on and so forth.