im scared. im scared of everything. im scared to let people in, and im scared to let people out. i talk about how i want to meet new people, make new friends. im to scared to let them actually be friends. i have people from the past who hurt me but keep coming back and im scared to let them go because they are what im used to. that are what i've lived with, dealt with. im scared of the unknown. im a coward when it comes to relationships. im scared to put myself out there from all of the rejection in the past. im scared to let someone see me cry, because i will be vulnerable. im scared to let someone know im angry, because im vulnerable. im scared to lose every single person in my life. i can jump out of a fucking plane 13,000 feet but when it comes to emotions and real shit im fucking scared. im scared for kevin leaving. im scared to start a job because i may be bad at it. im scared to speak in a crowd larger then 4 or 5.

but im doing it. and im trying at it.
so that has to show for something right?