i've been in this continual good mood and im throughly enjoying it. maybe cause its the fact that spring is comign soona nd there has been tons of sunlight and warmer weather lately. Or maybe it's the fact that i have been hanging out with a bestfriend that i havent seen or talked to in forever because of differences. Maybe its the fact that im getting closer to kevin and i appreciate him more and more each day. i appreciate everything more and more each day. whatever it is im glad im in this mood and i plan on making it stay. I've been trying to look at things differently . like kevin going to oneonta. I was thinking of it as hey my boyfriend is leaving me, i wont see him a lot at all long distant relationship never last. but ive been thinking about it and really ill get to spend weekends with him, we'll get webcams and talk and see eachother. technology has made it very easy for this to work. so i feel better about things. and ive been thinking postively about liek everything which i know i should do already but i dont. im just happier right now and i like it.